[last night]

I had a talk with Luke, asking him about another friend of ours and how he is doing. He tells me, "Not good." I figured as much. I've been calling him and he hasn't returned my calls. He didn't show up to church on Wednesday night and he missed the Men's group. It's not something he would usually do, so naturally, I worry. Maybe worry is the wrong word. I'm concerned.

What concerns me most is that Luke says to me, "He's made a mistake and unfortunately, he is paying for it now." Several ideas pop into mind, but I don't want to speculate. I love this guy. He's pretty much the older brother I've never had. I want to give him the benefit of the doubt, but what Luke says to me is troubling. I resolve to pray for this guy and hope that God works out the best.

I absolutely dislike being in the dark on issues that deal with people close to my heart. I want to know what's going on, but I trust that the proper people do know and when this brother is ready, he'll call me up and tell me what's going on in his life. Luke reaffirms me saying, "All will soon be revealed." He shares that what's going on with our friend won't stay hidden for long; that I will soon know what is happening and that I will be hurt by it, but that I will be able to cope with it and still love him.

Now that scares me. What is going on? As I start my day, I can only push wandering thoughts of endless possibilities aside and trust that God is doing what God needs to do and that man will always have sin and that's just the facts of life.

Amen.

Hiatus.

So I just got back from a great weekend in Palm Springs. We had a college ministry two-day retreat at the Ranchos Las Palmas in Rancho Mirage. I really learned a lot, came home with some deeper convictions as well. Something I definitely needed.

So to help me keep a little more spiritually focused and get things back on track, I'm going to be fasting (or taking a break) for 2 weeks. Normally one would fast with food, but for two weeks... that'd be really hard to do. I've decided to fast from using the internet. It's something I spend WAY too much time on and honestly, it's been pulling me farther and farther away from God. So I need to give it a rest for a while to re-evaluate my life, spend time in prayer, and give my best and fullest to God.

Alrighty... so obviously, that means... no more blogging, myspace, facebook or emails for the next two weeks. If you need to get a hold of me, do what everyone else did before those things became popular. Call me.

See you in dos semanas!
Cy